The above video is service New Providence Comunity Church in the Bahamas were I was working when I was on a six week mini-sabbatical to South Africa to spend time both with my parents as well as introduce my parents to hers and the beauty and wonder of the land of South Africa that I had already grown to love. It tells the story, to the community that I was Lead Pastor of at the time, of how I felt the calling to move to a new direction in South Africa and put some concrete dates to something that had, up until then, only been discussed as a decision but without any final time-line for the movement.

I felt a bit like Cortez "burning his ships", since I knew sermon was setting in motion not only a course within my own heart and the direction of my family. It was also setting professional expectations with the sacred community that over the last 20 years had become my family. I had entered the community as a Heroin addict freshly humbled by a stint in county jail and ready to embrace a new path in my of development. I actually went to the Bahamas for a six month internship at the community and ended 20 years later (15 years of full-time employment) as the Leader..... Surely a mystery that proves nothing of my worth, as Paul would say but of the humor and strategic foolishness of nature of the Divine, who "chooses the foolish to confound the wise." I take my place proudly among the Divinely inspired and sacred focused who have walked this earth over the many untold years that the human race have scoured it looking to find a ray of light in the midst of so much darkness and shadows. I have grown to a place in my heart where I no longer need to be right, I no longer need to look important, I no longer need to have large and expensive luxury items to prop up holes in my shallow and fragile ego.... I only want to be a light bearer....Most of the time...

Before I end this first post in this section (later to be found stored under Kalmeer above) that I will be using to track my personal reflections and observations of the journey from here to there, not really even having a clue where "there might actually be, I must acknowledge that the calling to "move to South Africa" may have come in Sunday, September 9th, 2011, it didn't really it's footing and steam until November 29, 2010. This is the date when I emailed a man who wold become a friend, partner and co-dreamer in the future of what becomes Kalmeer. Watch the video get an understanding of the beginning stirrings of my heart but know they were just a little sand that entered clam/womb and has been nurtured by the spirit beings ::seeward:: and Fire. The IdeaVirus will become a pearl! Kalmeer